September 28, 2005

Were in the MONEY And some other thangs

We’re in the MONEY!!!! And some other thangs

Just wanted to give an update, I did receive my check around 1:45pm CST and I am very happy. The mistake that was caused has been fixed so I will be enjoying Direct Deposit in the future. On another note I am going to Dave and Buster this evening to celebrate a friend/coworker birthday this evening. A friend of mine from Virginia called me last night but was unfortunately not able to return the phone call immediately so I will rectify that problem hopefully today.  I watched the movie WATERBOY with Adam Sandler yesterday and I now I remember why I love that movie so much;) I hope you all have a wonderful Wednesday aka MID WEEK DAY.

On a separate note, I did email my ex-boyfriend who had apologized to me a couple of days ago, and told him that I appreciated his apology and I know that in time I will be able to forgive but I know that in my heart I won’t ever forget.

September 27, 2005

Been crazy this week

Been crazy this weekend……..

Well besides not having my money this past weekend, on Sunday I had to work 10am to 9pm. NOT FUN!!!!! We also closed the store at 7pm because we had our INVENTORY day scheduled from 7pm to 4am. Needless to say I was tired and cranky by that time because I was meeting my family up at Harrah’s Casino at 9pm to celebrate my sister’s belated birthday. We went to the new Seafood Restaurant there called Moby Dick. I had King Crab Legs which were pretty tasty. Afterwards I went home and crashed. It was an exhausting day and I needed to reenergize. Oh and by the way, today is TUESDAY and I still don’t’ have my damn money now aint that bout a bitch?

September 23, 2005

Payday is a bitch

Payday is a bitch

Why am I here at work with no check? I mean whoever set up my direct deposit for my main job phucked it up. I was looking forward to this check because it has hella overtime on it and I was going to treat myself for a change. Something told me it was going to act funny but I didn’t think to act on it. Now that I look at the copy of my paycheck stub, who entered in my info, their dumbass put in SAVINGS account for type instead of CHECKING. I’m not sure how they could POSSIBLY PHUCK it up but, alas I am here on a Friday without my money. I’m not getting that much work done because I’m just so damn steamed and pissed. I’ve been calling my Human Resource department and calling my bank and I’m like what the Phuck? Shit like this makes me remember why I hate direct deposit and why technology is nearly not as perfect as people make it out to be. There is always going to be errors especially done by the operator aka a human.

September 22, 2005

Time for healing?

Hello there and hope all is well in your neck of the woods. Yesterday I was at work at my cpu and I was getting ready to leave for the day, when something told me to check an old website of mine that I use to frequent alot back in the day. Some of you might know it, BLACKPLANET. I logged on and saw that I had new notes. Knowing I hadn't been on here in at least 2 to 3 years I decided it probably wasn't anything except just some silly ol advertisements. Yet I received a quite a shock to my system when I recognized a note from someone I hadn't spoken to in years. I just sat there and blinked my eyes for a couple of seconds thinking my eyes were playing tricks on me. The first thing I noticed was the date, it had been written late August and what shocked me was that if I had waited another week to check my notes, it would have been automatically deleted since notes only stay on the system for 30 days.

My head and palms immediately became sweaty because I couldn't figure out why this person was contacting me after all this time and the subject line of his note only said HEY. I clicked on it and just sat back as I read his brief paragraph to me. It was an apology for what happened in the past between us and how he treated me. He wasnt asking for anything but hoping i would forgive him. I broke down in tears and just held myself....shaking. In a way I felt a cloud lift off of my head that I had been trying to shake for the past 4 years.

All kind of things just started to run thru my head. My feelings for him, love and hate. Our past, and the heaven and hell it caused. I wonder deep down and inside could I ever forgive him? So I did what any person would do, I called one of my closest best friends and told her how I felt. There was so much I wanted to do with him and I felt that I had wasted so much time and things that I wanted with him I never would have the chance to do or have. He will always be my first love of that I will have no doubt but damn why is it so hard for me to find out whom will be my next if not the last? I was on my porch last night just crying and listening to her wisdom. She understood knowing the both of us and she told me that for me to move on I needed to heal and forgive him. Yet it is easier said than done.

This was the person I loved more than myself and maybe that was my mistake. I put him before me. Throughout the years he's haunted my thoughts and my dreams. I still wondered how he was doing and if he was okay. Even after all the bullshit he put me through I still cared about him and loved him. Yet I know things could never go back to the way they were. Everything had gone too far south with us to ever make it the way it was. I have changed into a different person, as well as he has. Honestly I don't know how I would act if I saw him. Would I even acknowledge him or just pass him up as though he were a figment of my imagination? Maybe I would want to give him a hug because I loved the way he held me, but at the same time I wouldn't want him to touch me because of the way he would shun me. I wouldn't even know how to start a conversation with him, I would just probaby look at him and my mouth would just stay rigid or maybe it might go slack. If I did start a convo with him I guess the most important thing I would bring up would just be................why?

What do I miss about him? His smile(beautiful lips), his eyes (drowning in chocolate and eyebrows to match), his nose (perfect angle), his laugh (sexy baritone boom of a voice), his voice (the way he would whisper in my ear), his physical presence (I felt safe), the mole on his chin (the way i would blink my eyelashes and tickle him), the way we would hold each other, the way he would kiss me (either passionate and fast or slow and lazy), his body (the man was built perfect, I won't lie, he had a beautiful backside, a perfect model for a sculpting class),the way we were intimate (physically and mentally), but most importantly the way he used to be one of my best friends (talking either on the phone or face to face for hours). I have to acknowlege the past to go thru the present and be ready for my future. I just wonder will my future be ready for me or vice versa?

Forewarning to the next man I give my heart to:

Treat me with the respect I deserve, not what you deem is sufficent. Treat me as a treasure for I am no man's hand me down. Know that you have a WOMAN (not a chicken head, a gold digga or some dumb ass heffa) who will have your back, but don't EVER take me for granted for when that time has come, I will be there no more. If you do not want my heart anymore, PLEASE give it back to me the way you found it, without any bruises or bumps, I didn't ask for them. I will have more respect for you letting me know FIRST how you feel rather than thru the grapvine. I don't ask for material things for someone to show there love for me. Just love me for who I am and you will recieve back 100 hundred fold.

September 20, 2005

please beware - scan artist on yahoo 360 - goes by salimar r

please beware - scam artist on yahoo 360 - goes by salimar r
There is a person on here with the username, salami r, beware this person is sending out an message that i am showing a copy of below: note I have told Yahoo about this at least twice and still they have yet to act on this as well as some other issues.

Dear Friend, Greetings in the name of the Lord,As you read this, I don't want you to feel sorry for me,because, I know everyone will die someday.My name is Mr. Salami Rabiu a merchant in Dubai, in the U.A.E.I have been diagnosed with Esophageal cancer. It has defiled all forms of medical treatment, and right now I have only about a few months to live, according to medical experts. I have not particularly lived my life so well, as I never really cared for anyone (not even myself) but my business.Though I am very rich, I was never Generous, I was always hostile to people and only focused on my business as that was the only thing I cared for.But now I regret all this, as I now know that there is more to life than just wanting to have or make all the money in the world. I have decided to give alms to charity organizations,as I want this one of the last good deeds I do on earth. So far, I have distributed money to some charity organizations in the U.A.E, Algeria and Malaysia. Now that my health has deteriorated so badly, I cannot do this myself anymore. I once asked members of my family to close all my accounts and sell off all my properties and distribute the money to charity organizations and keep only a certain % to themselves but they refused and with aid of my lawyer they kept the money to themselves. Hence, I do not trust them anymore, as they seem not to be contended with what I have left for them. The last of my money which no one knows of is the huge cash deposit of eighteen million dollars $18,000,000,00 that I have with a finance/Security Company abroad. I will want you to help me collect this deposit and dispatch it to charity organizations.I have set aside 10% for your time. God be with you. Salami Rabiu. you can forward your response to for my own convenience p.s,i will like part to go for the huricane victims

So please past the word around to your other fellow bloggers. If Yahoo isn't going to protect us we are just going to have to do it ourselves. Again this is a scam artist. I put him on my IGNORE list so I hopefully won't be getting anymore emailing listings. not to mention this is really so obviously a scam letter I found it quite pathetic and had a good laugh on it after the first read. Take care everybody and be alert.

September 18, 2005

Entry for September 18, 2005

Hello people;) Hope all is well, just chillin at gig number 2 can't wait to get off of work. Going to go see a movie with one of my coworkers who happens to be one of my best friends and get something to eat afterwards. Take care and for those waiting on chapter 20, I'm almost done and it should be up within the next couple of days. Been writing here at work. lol so at least Im getting some work done;) Overall hope you have enjoyed your weekend and enjoy what you have left. take care

September 17, 2005

Eye Of The Storm

Eye Of The Storm


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Beautiful photos, Peaceful, sensual, and tasteful;) check them out.

September 16, 2005

Why my black people WHY????????

It's bad enough the media has potrayed black people as just some damn thieves. Yet I know somethings were done for survival. But DAMN since when did having 10+ pairs of nike airs and 20+ bottles of heiken become a survival factor? PLEASE LET ME KNOW SOMETHIN!!!!!

September 14, 2005

My world my world talking about my world

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My world, my world, talking bout my world…………………MY WORLD

I wish I could visit different parts of the world……scratch that I wish I had MONEY to visit different parts of the world.

Tom Joyner - Consider and think on NUD

Tom Joyner - Consider and think on these things.Tom Joyner wants this information to reach his listeners.. You have probably heard of "NUD" as a result of the Tom Joyner morning show related to CompUSA. NUD is the acronym for a very subtle and little-known marketing term specifically directed toward people of color.NUD stands for Non Urban Dictate. These three words essentially mean that a company is not interested in the Black consumer. A NUD label means that a company does not want their marketing and advertising materials placed in media that claim an urban audience (black folks) as their main target.There are legitimate reasons for companies not using urban radio. It may be that Blacks don't index high in certain categories or that a company's strategy is to market to the Black consumer down the road after they have established a strong position in their primary target.But NUD usually means that a company is not interested in the Black consumer. Companies evade discrimination liability by embracing it as theory rather than policy. As a service to Black consumers, the Urban Institute will list all companies that have a NUD policy. Armed with this information, we feel that Black consumers will be able to make informed buying decisions. 

Companies with NUD policies:
a. Starbucks                            b. Jos. A Bank                        c. CompUSA
d. Weight Watchers                e. Keebler                               f. Life Saversg. Continental Airlines      
h. Northwest Airlines   
i. America West Airlines         j. HBO - Apollo Series  
k. Paternal Importers               l. Calico Cornersm. OMScott                             n. Pepperidge Farms            o. Ethan Allen
p. Busy Body Fitness               q. Mondavi Wines               r. Builders Squares Don Pablo                              t. Lexus                               u. ArubaTourism        
v. Ciba Vision                          w. Kindercare                         
x. Grady Restaurant                 y. Eddie Bauer

Please forward this information on to any other consumer that you consider a friend and advise them to do likewise. Remember, you can't act wisely unless you are informed wisely.The Urban Institute2100 M Street, NW.Washington, DC20037(202) 833-7200"The ruin of a nation begins in the homes of its people" --African Proverb.

September 13, 2005

Under Surveillance - HATERS

Under Surveillance

Sorry I haven’t written in a while. Just been so busy and haven’t been able to catch up with myself. At my main job right now and on my cpu. Was trying to get to my Yahoo 360 blog page and what do you know? My access was blocked. I was able to get on there yesterday but I guess today they decided to put a lockdown on it. Kind of pissed off, but don’t care, that’s why I have 2 other blogs. So today my topic is about computer networking and surveillance; what are the pros and cons.

Pros of course you can tell what people are doing.
Cons of course you can tell what people are doing.

That’s all I have to say about that……for now.

“He who getteth in the wayeth of my progress, shall parish underneath the sword of my words.”

September 6, 2005

Friends make the world go round

Good morning;) yesterday was Labor Day, and even though I was off from one job, I still had to go into the OTHER one and work a 6 hour shift. I didn't like it but hey, it's a check. Afterwards I went to say bye to my best friend from out of town, and we ended up talking for a couple of hours. About relationships, friendships, and other things. We were also reminiscing about how we met and how much we value our friendship.

September 5, 2005

Entry for September 05, 2005

good mornin to all!!!!! i had a kick ass day, yesterday. went to a friends wedding where one of my best friends was matron of honor. Then had a family function where i had some bar-q chicken, strawberry shortake and some other goodies. then later on that night i hooked up with 2 of bestfriends (matron of honor and girlfriend from elementary school) and we went to PLUSH, a nite club connected to st. louis union station. we weren't able to get in because we didn't have enough party, yet by the time we got there the REST of the weddding party was also there. So one of the guys was very kind to pay for all 3 of us to get in. we kicked it there till 3 somethin in a mornin. got my drink on, dance on, and holla on. So last night was def. a DAMN good night:) Dropped my girl off, went by white castles and called it a night. and boy did i pay for it today;) Yet it was worth it to have a great time with my girls. Will post a pic from the occasion.

September 3, 2005

Good evening people

Sorry I haven't been on here in a while, I've been busy and tired. Last night was over one of my best friends house who is from Florida. WE talked, smoked cigars, and learned how to play GIN. Earlier this week, this past Wednesday went to the zoo, will post pics on that soon;) Hope all is well. I holla. I m at work right now. Bye-Bye;)
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